Saturday, June 19, 2010

Dad.

I'm not sure what I'm up against. But to be honest, I have no idea how to celebrate this day.
"He didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it...
Thanks for being a great role model to me Papa"

"To the coolest and most awesome father in the world. There's no one better to ride the craziest rollercoasters with than you -- sorry for the almost-heart attack heehee :D Happy Father's Day! I love you, Papa :)"


"Three raps for the man who showed me that a life lived for others is a life well lived. Happy Fathers’ Day po, Tay."


"happy fathers day to all fathers who love their chidren
and wife more than anything else..♥"

And....

"The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother."

Current facebook status' of people around my world. I won't deny the fact that I'm a little envious of how much they are able to express their love for their dad's.

When I was a kid, whenever my dad came to visit, I'd run down the stairs and jump up to give him a tight hug. Now, when I hear the engine of his motorcycle going up the driveway, I'd make sure my door was locked to pretend I was busy or I was sleeping.

Maybe it's because today, I have this strong feeling that I already know how much damage he's done. To me , my family, my mom. But true enough, I know I just pretend to hate him not because I'm angry, but because I'm hurt.

At bilang inakyatan niya ko ng Buko Shake ngayon lang.... HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DAD. Hahahaha. No. Kidding aside, he's my father one way or another. I love him. No need to announce that on facebook. I just know I love him. Some are just fathers. But him, he's a father and a dad at the same time. Something that won't be measured by the days and nights he visits us or the money he gives out for us.

I hope someday I'll learn to be the kid in me again.
I'll write him letters and draw us together holding hands.

2 comments:

Jakey Junkie said...

I don't know what to say for I don't have a clear background about your family. Yet for some reason, I kinda related to what you were feeling as far as this is concerned.

In a nutshell, I'm emotinally distanced from my dad.

For what it's worth, belated happy dad's day to you and me.

Elias Jayson said...

waiting for the day that you would draw those stick figures again.